Not a Real Hiatus

Monday, October 15, 2012

Hi folks,

I haven't been posting a lot lately and I just wanted to check in really quickly. I experienced a loss that has left me really devastated- my beloved dog Kuma. To be honest, I don't really want to get into it too much. The searing heartache has finally dulled to an ache that I can bear and I don't particularly wish to dive head first into waves of sorrow and despair, because I don't know if I can pull myself out again.

Every single time I get home and open the door, I brace myself for the sound of you running to the door. The sound of claws as you get up, the muffled thumping as your heavy paws pad towards the door.

It doesn't come.

And it feels terrible.

Mostly, I've been trying to stay busy. I'm prone to bouts of depression in the winter months as it is and I'm trying everything I can to ... I don't know. Be ok, I guess. Trying to stay active has kept me out and about, away from my computer and blogging.

I'll be back soon though, I love blogging far too much to stop.